It was born in the lonely pandemic as an international student with a single living in most time. With the deep noise in a dark night, the sea of alone flood me. It is a conflict that the bored noise in the day has got me missed. The special experience brought me thinking about the point between social life and independent time. It really special time that most people are suffering in a similar situation, which people can feel each other to this extent. The Alienation and Participation need a balance, indicated me to present the state in the current time.